Caden's First Day of Kindergarten

Where has the time gone?  Today, Caden started Kindergarten.  He wasn't nervous at all.  The thing he was most worried about was figuring out what time recess would be.  He is so opinionated about his looks right now.  Even though he'd insisted on a 'spikey' haircut for school, this morning he was just as insistent that it be combed 'smooth' and tomorrow we'll do 'spikey.'

I told Ryan this morning as we were getting ready that this felt a little anti-climatic.  It didn't feel like the big milestone everyone told me it would be.  Then as I was walking him to the door of the school I started to get teary eyed.  I'm not even sure I can peg the emotion I was feeling, I just wanted to hug him tight and never let him go.  

I'm still really scared about school and Caden's safety there, but the staff has been great to work with so far, which has helped a ton.  My mom sewed Caden a belt that goes under his shirt and carries his Auvi-Q (a new type of Epi-Pen) so he'd be able to self carry his epinephrine.   Having him self carry helps me breathe easier because my biggest worry is that an allergic reaction won't be recognized in time to get him to the office and get meds from there.